nykto was made as a last hail mary to my mental health. i needed something to do with my hands and something to look forward to. so i deleted all my social media and started. it worked. now im here instead of my bathroom floor and i feel alive. though that doesnt mean im completely free of mental illness. i still struggle daily, but the weight is a little less heavy on my shoulders. i still drink, im still suicidal, my walls are still built high, i still dont feel okay, but somehow it seems bearable now. also sorry for the lag
im the owner of nykto., bluebell,,.,/,/. im a filo-chin student living in asia with an interest in coding and fashion and just how things really look in general. my birthday is july 13. im 160 cm with brown hair and brown eyes. i cut my own hair so the layers are awkward and uneven. i prefer to keep my nails long since they remind me of catwoman and killua. i like to switch between rectangular framed glasses and circle glasses. i like to interchange them cause the rectangle ones remind me of tsukishima kei and the circle ones remind me of ango sakaguchi huahuahhaihaho
im always really bad at describing myself cause my aesthetics and personality change so often and especially depending on who im talking to at the moment. i cope by abandoning all social media which is why im really bad at responding to dms and often avoid social interaction at all times unless absolute necessary. im the type of friend who almost never reaches out first which im not proud of... im trying to unlearn it cause of how much it affects my friends
some things i love are vampirism, souls-like games, utilitarian clothing, leather jackets, grass, teeth, road trips, musty smelling things, brutalist architechture, loud music, medieval knights, and rolled up sleeves. as a kid i was really into egyptian gods and mytholygy. so much so to the point that my dad bought me a 50 dollar encyclopedia of it. im very lucky that my dad supported my interests as that i grew into his own interests, because now i inherit his merch
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I grew up in a very poor part of my city where its normal for the roads to not even have sidewalks let alone enough space for 2 modern cars, and its very common to see people doing drugs or having guns, seeing homeless kids running around naked, seeing kids selling stuff to earn money, trash everywhere, kids vaping, adults not caring
so i spent a lot of my time on the internet as a kid. youtube was basically my second home and while i am thankful for the endless information i now just have it also was a factor of the reason why im mentally ill now. i was a kid i shouldnt have been watching gore videos but if i wasnt online 24/7 i would have never known the things i love now
nastyona, kizu, buck-tick, gulu gulu, sheena ringo, takayan, dadaroma, damned, the gazette, magatsunote, deadman, whatsaheart, tactical sekt, eisenfunk, slipknot, she wants revenge, ethel cain, poylphia, nct, onlyoneof, madison beer, 2hollis, odetari
jason todd, tim drake, kon el, jotaro kujo, kakyoin noriaki, leone abbacchio, nikto, nikaido yamato, legoshi, wriothesley, eyeless jack, cahara, naitou kun, super sonico, nyon and nyen, towa, izumi rei, mello, shin okazaki, miles upshur, matt murdock, ethan winters, gakupoid, kaito, vy2, pyramid head, mayoi ayase, tatsumi kazehaya, oikawa tooru (everyone in haikyuu at this point) (mostly oikawa)